graduation | school
"my school years were a kaleidoscope of memories - they are not always good, but each one is important. Within those memories two emotions remain strong.
heartbreak - when you dont get the results you want, when your friend tells you she is studying overseas. that night you realize everything changes. it is overwhelming and astounding because your last few days of school should not be like this.
but amidst the heartbreak there is joy. it is there in the big moments - the day you recieve an acceptance letter to a good college/university, the feeling of writing your last exam - but the most important ones are the quiet ones.
it is the realization that the girls you barely knew are now your best friends, the annual society day being awesome after weeks of endless deco, the silent moments when simply being qith your friends was enough.
the joy is scattered throughout, filling every dark moment with a bit of light. the day before my graduation, the heartbreak is still overwhelming. those memories flood me sometimes, wrapping around my heart and filling my eyes until they are all i see. but beneath the heartbreak, the joy remains.
when they say your school years are your best years of your life, they dont tell you it will be more heartbreak than hope.
but looking back on my own, at 11:56 PM the night before i graduate, i know i wouldnt trade mine for anything."
- something i posted on instagram last night :)
it's here. the day i graduate. it's unbelievale. for thirteen long years i have been at the same environment around the same people and now we say goodbye. tere is no guarantee that i will see most of them again. i will no longer see them five times a week from morning till noon fussing over tiny troubles like homework and not enough food. there will no onger be waking up at half past five to put on a dreary white uniform and drag our heavy feet to school. no more school bells and double bio periods.
school life was a roller coaster of a ride for me. i experienced great many things here that i never thught of actually experiencing. like for example in my middle school days i really thought i was gong to be one of those loners who wouldnt have much friends and would end up graduating with a handful of memories. but boy was i wrong.
my highschool life changed everything. i made new friends, found my squad, understood what i wanted to do and who i wanted to be although there were a few complications even after i knew what i wanted to do.
looking back now on the night after graduation and even the night before graduation i think we all deserve a freaking oscar. all of us who graduated today we went through a whole load of poop. whether i knew them well enough or not I know for a fact that most of us had a tough time in school. now i am not telling that school was completely horrible. oh no! i did have good times there too.
like all the choirs and drill i trained. the food i got from many many lunchboxes. the best friends i made. the moonjis. the chemistry experiments. the sneakily roaming the corridors. bunking classes. the library. the deco days. the boardroom moments. the spilling of nescafe. the carnivals and the fairs. and i could go on and on and on about all the crazy times i have had at school.
the thing is being a muslim i wont get this environment to have this kind of fun again. my school was an girls' school and so we did have a lot of fun. but i know it will be hard for me to have this kind of fun ever again because even if i am going to college i wont have the same fun i had with my girls which is why school life is very much treasured.
even this year as we went back to school for graduation preps it kind of hit us that this is the last event where we are ever going back to school for and its the last event as a batch, as students of ilma. and even now as i am typing this it hits me hard. there isnt really a reason to go back to school anymore. i mean i can if i want to. but it isnt really necessary.
you know when i was in my last year of school some of the kids kept saying 'its our last first day of school'', 'its our last sportsmeet as students', 'its our last library day' etc. but we didnt really d much about it. we just laughed it off and said that there is more time. until it was our last day at school. now i dont know if anybody cried, caus ei didnt really see anyone actually doing so, but i knew that in all our hearts, no matter hw much we said we hated school we were going to miss this place. more for the friends and the fun times than for the lessons and the tests.
graduation itself was a big thing. we all wore saree and dressed up. i basically looked like a watermelon in a saree but yeah. we got our graduation certificates and had good food. although i was missing my friends i enjoyed it. i did feel like it wasnt upto my expectations though because as i looked around me at all the girls who were in all their own cliques i realized that some of them i wont ever meet again. sad isnt it. i realized that this is it. its finally over. and i just dont really know how else to put my emotions into words.
so now that i have graduated and i have a whole new life ahead of me all i can say is this,
the years you spend in school can never come again and looking back on it now on the night after my graduation, i know i wouldnt trade mine for anything else.
heartbreak - when you dont get the results you want, when your friend tells you she is studying overseas. that night you realize everything changes. it is overwhelming and astounding because your last few days of school should not be like this.
but amidst the heartbreak there is joy. it is there in the big moments - the day you recieve an acceptance letter to a good college/university, the feeling of writing your last exam - but the most important ones are the quiet ones.
it is the realization that the girls you barely knew are now your best friends, the annual society day being awesome after weeks of endless deco, the silent moments when simply being qith your friends was enough.
the joy is scattered throughout, filling every dark moment with a bit of light. the day before my graduation, the heartbreak is still overwhelming. those memories flood me sometimes, wrapping around my heart and filling my eyes until they are all i see. but beneath the heartbreak, the joy remains.
when they say your school years are your best years of your life, they dont tell you it will be more heartbreak than hope.
but looking back on my own, at 11:56 PM the night before i graduate, i know i wouldnt trade mine for anything."
- something i posted on instagram last night :)
it's here. the day i graduate. it's unbelievale. for thirteen long years i have been at the same environment around the same people and now we say goodbye. tere is no guarantee that i will see most of them again. i will no longer see them five times a week from morning till noon fussing over tiny troubles like homework and not enough food. there will no onger be waking up at half past five to put on a dreary white uniform and drag our heavy feet to school. no more school bells and double bio periods.
school life was a roller coaster of a ride for me. i experienced great many things here that i never thught of actually experiencing. like for example in my middle school days i really thought i was gong to be one of those loners who wouldnt have much friends and would end up graduating with a handful of memories. but boy was i wrong.
my highschool life changed everything. i made new friends, found my squad, understood what i wanted to do and who i wanted to be although there were a few complications even after i knew what i wanted to do.
looking back now on the night after graduation and even the night before graduation i think we all deserve a freaking oscar. all of us who graduated today we went through a whole load of poop. whether i knew them well enough or not I know for a fact that most of us had a tough time in school. now i am not telling that school was completely horrible. oh no! i did have good times there too.
like all the choirs and drill i trained. the food i got from many many lunchboxes. the best friends i made. the moonjis. the chemistry experiments. the sneakily roaming the corridors. bunking classes. the library. the deco days. the boardroom moments. the spilling of nescafe. the carnivals and the fairs. and i could go on and on and on about all the crazy times i have had at school.
the thing is being a muslim i wont get this environment to have this kind of fun again. my school was an girls' school and so we did have a lot of fun. but i know it will be hard for me to have this kind of fun ever again because even if i am going to college i wont have the same fun i had with my girls which is why school life is very much treasured.
even this year as we went back to school for graduation preps it kind of hit us that this is the last event where we are ever going back to school for and its the last event as a batch, as students of ilma. and even now as i am typing this it hits me hard. there isnt really a reason to go back to school anymore. i mean i can if i want to. but it isnt really necessary.
you know when i was in my last year of school some of the kids kept saying 'its our last first day of school'', 'its our last sportsmeet as students', 'its our last library day' etc. but we didnt really d much about it. we just laughed it off and said that there is more time. until it was our last day at school. now i dont know if anybody cried, caus ei didnt really see anyone actually doing so, but i knew that in all our hearts, no matter hw much we said we hated school we were going to miss this place. more for the friends and the fun times than for the lessons and the tests.
graduation itself was a big thing. we all wore saree and dressed up. i basically looked like a watermelon in a saree but yeah. we got our graduation certificates and had good food. although i was missing my friends i enjoyed it. i did feel like it wasnt upto my expectations though because as i looked around me at all the girls who were in all their own cliques i realized that some of them i wont ever meet again. sad isnt it. i realized that this is it. its finally over. and i just dont really know how else to put my emotions into words.
so now that i have graduated and i have a whole new life ahead of me all i can say is this,
the years you spend in school can never come again and looking back on it now on the night after my graduation, i know i wouldnt trade mine for anything else.
p.s. ill upload the pictures later.
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